extinguish.

hey there,

im back and again nothing comes out of my head if i try to think of what to put here. The best solution is just to stay steady and go random with everything. And just quietly drop dimes. One thing im very glad is that im chatting with Gracie again. I call her Gracie Prozac. I really enjoy talking to her and stuff. Im just glad.

I got nothing going on really, Gracie took most of my depression away. And its a bad habit to write only when you are depressed. And i get depressed by a lot of things, they just kind of merge into a huge snowball and you know, hit you... so yeah, stress can be relieved and life can be enjoyed and all that shit... Im thinking of morbid stuff more often now, like how i my gonna maul senseless a fucking thief or a robber if ever i meet one, what words do i say and how brutl im gonna be. Ah, the great depression of life. I wonder how it feels like to end someone's life. Nah, its too morbid for me. Im such the nice fat kid.

Summer is here. And i definitely hate it.

There's a lot happening during the summer season, most of it is really fucked up. One has to be careful of what could happen on the course of this year's most dreadful season. In my part i gotta brace for it because its gonna be a long lonely ass summer, but the good part is that im gonna make plenty of money, i hope. I just hate summer, plain and simple. But yeah, ill just expect whatever and face it and swallow the bitter pill if i have to. Fuck you summer.

One thing i did that made me proud yesterday is that i worked-out, 600kcals non-stop. I think thats great. I was pretty tiring and all but i did it and i enjoyed doing it.. The better part is that i didnt have any pain strain on my legs. Which is really cool. Ill trying repeating my feat today if things go smoothly.

I still have a lot to do...
I have to wash my sheets, fix my bags, buy bus tickets, buy rap's party flavors. I hope Leann could understand that i need time to do all that stuff. Sigh, im such the weaklings when it comes to arguments. FUCK.

"well this is what would be oh glory."

LHC

Hey there,

Im really really inspired by the paramore song - Let the flames begin. For me, its the best paramore song ever. Its kinda dark but its very emotional and it evokes hope and you know.. The lyrics are very meaningful and it somehow pushes you not to give up or give in to anything that puts you down. Even everything seems to be falling apart, you can still move on and fight back.

And Hayley is such a darling...plus on this song, you can jump around and headbang. Now how many of us is longing for a paramore concert here? Grr.

Also, ive been listening a lot to Pupil, they got good songs too. My favorites are "Bato", Matador and Disconnection Notice. DN sometimes makes me feel more insane than usual. I really find myself now talking more and more random things than usual. eek.

I just got elected as the new LHC. Kudos to me. I know ill do a great job only if im supported well enough. There will be haters but i dont care, i gotta be focused on all of my goals. If not we all fail.
I know that i got a lot of things to fix but let me just do it one step at a time.

My head hurts and i wanna feel the pleasure of napping. I played DDR yesterday and i played well and burned aroud 300kcals maybe. I had fish for dinner. Man, i love seafood. Vacation's almost here and pip and i are going back to seafood paradise. The steamed lapulapu, the spiced crab in tomato sauce, the huge prawns, the fresh blue marlins... God..

Kudos also to Boss Gid. You deserve it and you definitely earned the position. We are going to support Theta all the way.

My head hurts again as i think about all the inactive members that are going back, i am going to demand for their time and respect. Although i have to earn their respect as well. I must not be scared of these challenges and i will radiate my authority to them and show them who's boss. But yeah, its my leadership i gotta show. Its tough, we are still on the bottom of the pit.

Im still looming over the thought of how would i react to the returning members who would dislike me as their leader. again, my head hurts.

one - they werent around to know me better.
two - should they want another person, they should have given time to attend the fucking elections.
three - should they want another person, they should have been appearing in meetings even if they are inactive. At least they know what's in the loop. Or who's doing what and such.

my head continues to hurt and wonders if i spelled correctly the word - "they".

I strongly disagree to absentee voting, im afraid that those other members who didnt hear me talk in the GPOA will not respect me as the new LHC. I heard a brod even describing me over the phone as - yung nagmamagic. Its totally unfair to both Chad and I.

I wonder, if i am still yet to adapt to the diliman culture.
I wonder, if i am able to change this culture for the better.

But still, my heartfelt thanks to all the people who supports my cause.
Thanks!